Hey, we sound a lot alike. I am a self destructive too, but refused to tell my doctor. I once overheard a doctor say that "we" do it for attention, which isn't true. If we did we would want the world to know, right? Anyway, I love my pdoc, she is wonderful, but she is too wonderful. I feel too comfortable to share certain things... again probably not making sense. Anyway, the only person I am around all day is my 2 year old and my hubby when he gets home. He knows what I do, but he doesn't stop me. He does however tell me that he loves me the way I am and that I am so beautiful.... yep even when I was at 200lbs. :O He likes me no matter what. And at times I like me too, then I start obsessing over how much better... it's crazy. Hopefully I am making sense... I know I keep saying that, but when I tell what is on my mind people tend not to understand, lol. Anyway, thanks for all the help and support.

Sabrina