Noooo -- not that kind of ranch. I think those type of ranches are all about abuse and punishment, kids locked in huts for days on end... noooooo...

I did a lot of research for about 3 years before I sent him to the Utah school. It was expensive but seemed like the best place I could find, and he was on drugs and not letting me home school him, refusing to go to school and routinely thrashing my house, and me, and his siblings. I felt like I should do something intensive intervention before someone including him got really hurt. Oh and cps had investigation going planning to place him somewhere of their choosing.

The ranch I'm talking about is this kids family's in Montana or Texas or something. I know those are opposite directions, but i just can't remember. The friend invited him to come live with him for awhile, but then my son got so into the meth we couldn't even hold a conversation, and it's total mayhem when he's on the shards as they call it. The other problem was, I have no idea if his family wants a bp teen with violent history in their house... or if the kid or family are drug free and good influence.

So Anika, the Secret, I watch that with my 11 yr old too lol, he loves it. I could maybe get Nate to watch it, but I don't know.

He's on edge tonight, has mentioned wanting to die, kill someone, bored, angry, etc. but it's just talk at this point. I think he's just processing the disappointment and feeling stupid about missing the teacher appt last week, and about not just making the easy enough phone call to his p.o.

But this is improvement for him, to use words and talk about it even yell about it rather than hurting himself, using drugs, or breaking things.

I've actually just got a knot in my stomach like he's really at risk for relapsing tonight. Going to go see if he wants to talk.