Was going to shorten your name to GoMF, but that sounds terrible, so I'll stick to Girl.

I'll try to comment on each of your issues.

1. My heart goes out to you, it really does. I wish I could come over there and take all this pain away from you. You are so young, yet have had to struggle through so much. Please don't give in. Use these forums as much as you can for strength and support.

2. It's terrible when children have to look after their parents. They have to grow up so much when they should be enjoying their childhood. The fact that you still look after your father after his 'punishments' says so much for your strength of character. Keep planning that future you mention but don't overreach and take it one step at a time. You can put all of this behind you and be as successful in your chosen career/future plan as you want.

3. I don't know the circumstances of what happened, but abuse of this form is never, ever the victims fault. Whatever excuse they are using to blame you for what happened is complete and utter cobblers. (didn't want to swear). Don't get me started on your abuser. <I need to go calm down - people like this make my blood boil>

<back again>
I know you're only young and this is probably difficult, but is it possible for you to change therapists?

4. I'm no expert, and am not medically trained in any way, but I feel all these things you're going through are in some way linked. You have been through so much trauma, stress and hurt that it's starting to affect your physical well being. Your mind is trying to sort through so much that things are going awry.

5. <the blood is heating up again - deep breaths>
No-one who has been through everything you've been through, would want people touching them. What you are feeling is perfectly natural. As for men, so much of the pain you've suffered has been caused by them, it's no wonder you doubt them all. Be patient with yourself. You need to build a relationship with positive role-model type men again, ones you can look up to and who will have a positive impact on your life (good men do exist - honest). This takes time so don't push it and don't worry about it. In day-to-day life there is no reason for any man to need to touch you (apart from your doctor if he's male)

6. No one deserves what you have had to go through. You are not to blame. I know that's easy for me to say and difficult for you to believe but it is the truth. To coin a phrase "**** happens" <yes, I know I said I wasn't going to swear>. You have had so much happen to you but none of it was deserved or your fault.

7. I'm back to "**** happens" again. None of those things are nice but they really, really aren't your fault. I cannot stress that enough. You are NOT to blame.

I really want to give you a nice big but bearing in mind that's not want you want at the moment (see point 5) I've uploaded a gallery picture of our rabbit Jack. Let him give you a nice big hug instead. I warn you though, you'll be covered in fur in no time.

I hope that all helps even if it's just a little.