I'm going to go with Lana Del Rey's 10 minute video of "Ride".
The feelings she expresses in the spoken word lyrics at the beginning are so familiar to me.



"I was always an unusual girl.
My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean..."

Editing to add the chorus lyrics, because I meant to but posted too early :

"'I'm trying hard not to get into trouble
But I've got a war in my mind"