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Also, I really don't cope well with breaks. Things get worse and worse in my head. I keep replaying some of the most hurtful things you said like "you wouldn't be a good mother, just like your mother wasn't able to be a good mother to you". Don't you think that was just a bit too much? I can't believe you truly think that of me. When I first questioned it you said it was only true if I stayed the same as I am now. I'm not sure if you realise that that comment doesn't make it much better, because right now, my therapist thinks I would be a bad mother. Ouch. Don't you know I'm allowed to think that of myself, but not you? You're not supposed to think that. I'm nothing like my mother and there's a lot that I would do right. Why aren't you focusing on that stuff anymore? How could you truly think so little of me? Last time I saw you, we both spoke about how there was truth in all the things you said that hurt me so much and you said you wanted me to use it to help move forwards. But, a bad mother? Don't you think that was just a bit too much?