I should try to do the school counseling. I always feel embarrassed when it comes time to talk to someone.

The things that are bothering me the most are my relationship and my student loans. In August the guy I am seeing and I had a discussion where I just felt really bad afterward. I felt like he was nitpicking me. He however thought we had a great conversation and I guess he was happy to get whatever was on his mind out his mouth. I had a completely opposite reaction to this conversation than he did. I tried to talk to him about it the next day, but I was driving with him back home on a 5 hour drive and he said we shouldn't talk about this while I was driving. We haven't talked about it since and think about it everyday.

The second thing that is on my mind is that I'm graduating college next year and I have private student loans from a previous college I attended. They want me to start paying them around $2500 a month as soon as I graduate. I've run out of time to take financial hardships and a couple of years ago they tried to sue me. That is one of the main reasons I went back to school, so they would stop harassing me. I haven't been able to get a job that pays more than $11/hour and cannot afford $2500 a month.

I'm to the point where I am mentally and emotionally exhausted. I honestly don't see where I can have any future with this loan hanging over my head. I also have federal loans on top of that to pay as well. I don't know how I'm going to support myself.