(((((((( Psyclox ))))))))

I'm so sorry for all the loss you have to endure... it must be ripping you apart!!!!!!! Don't blame yourself for not being able to save him... how could you??? You have enough to live with as it is. I wish I could be of more help to you, but I know so little... I hope somewhere in this you will be able to find peace for your mind. Death is just another part of life, and I know sometimes it just hurts too much...