It sounds like this guy is no good for you. There are better people out there, it is hard to find someone you connect with, but if you stay with this guy I think he is going to make you miserable and hate life. My old friend sounded like this guy. He started dating another friend of mine. He would be nice enough to make her feel special and then he would crap all over her. Then when she was about to leave he would be nice and compassionate and then it would start all over again. She was with the guy for a year, but she finally left him. Now she is with a wonderful guy and has 2 children and is much happier. I would change your number and cut ties with this guy. He know what makes you feel special and loved and that is what he does to get you to be with him. Then when he is bored, frustrated etc he doesn't care about you. I think you deserve better than that.