Rajeev I'm new to the Bipolar scene, going through many years of different disorders and medications. So I cant help much on Bipolar itself. (I'm sure Daveryjones can though) =P but I would reccomend doing what he said, and I know how you feel, once winter hits everything goes down the toilet for me too, the weight of life in general seems to press down on you. I do stay active in the winter months having a wife and kids though, which does help most of the time. If you dont have that to keep you busy, become a hardcore gamer, lol I would consider myself one of those as well, and nothing takes away all the depressive thoughts like 5 hours of Battlefield or a good mmorpg. =P

In any case its horrible your insurance doesnt cover mental illness, and that you cannot get any kind of treatment or medication? I wish I could comment something positive about that but it just sucks in general.

Keep your head up though, there are many good people around here that will give you support!

Mark