Despite me telling myself again and again it doesn't make me who I am, having the hair cut that seems too short despite being a good shape, and just going wrong every time I get it cut, is wrecking havoc on my self-esteem.

Even as I type this my hands are shaking and I feel upset to my stomach. It's the third time in just a few months I tried to recut my hair into a flattering short and a bit pixie-ish style and the hair dresser said they'd have to make it a bit shorter, but I feel like they made it TOO short in some areas.

I have a critical family member who is sure to make fun of me behind my back for it now or be all shocked in my face to make me feel even worse. I'm so worried people at school will make fun of me secretly or think it looks bad. I feel so let down by myself in general like it's my own fault this is happening. I don't know what to do.