It's understandable why you are feeling so negative right now.

We all get down like that, putting ourselves down etc. You have to just take it one step at a time, do something to get yourself out of this rut, even if you don't think it'll help, do something anyways. Something you enjoy. Write something postive everyday somewhere in a note book or something, even if you don't believe it write it down anyways that will help. I know cause i've done it and it does help just to write something even if it's forced.

Take care Jon.

<font color=red>~Sundance~</font color=red>

<font color=blue>"Never react emotionally to criticism. Analyze yourself to determine whether it is justified. If it is, correct yourself. Otherwise, go on about your business."</font color=blue>

<font color=black>Norman Vincent Peale</font color=black>