I have a learning disability and am DID. for starters a therapist should not be bringing up cult stuff if you haven't alreadyaccepted you have DID and were actively working on cult memories. here in the USA therapists are supposed to let the client bring things up not the therapist say you have been abused in a cult settings without you first remembering you have been at least raised in cult life. the fact that your therapist did this basically makes it impossible for prosecution if at a later date you decide to confront and prosecute your abusers because of she has basically over stepped the guidelines that are there so therapists don't create false memory syndrom in clients of sexual abuse. The fact that she approached you with the idea of cults also makes it harder for you to be believed by any other therapists in the future because this therapist basically has set in motion the probability of the next therapist believing that your making things up based on what this therapist said.

The fact that she did this is considered emotional abuse of a client and can result in her having disciplinary hearings and possible loss of her certification for a specific time frame or permanently.

My suggestion is to drop her before she does more damage to you and your case.

the voice about the baby - if you are DID that voice should have always been there not sudden;y showing up in your head AFTER a therapist told you about being DID and cult stuff.

DID begins in childhood. From the situation that results in that memory being separated that piece of memory replays.

using the cult scenrio and your vioce that is going on in your head -

say this cult situation happened to you at age 10 then that voice would have been in your head saying this same thing over and over again starting when you were 10 on the night of the situation that created that voice and it would have been there all through your life.

Yes DID is a smart way to deal with being abused but all kinds of people are abused - doctors lawyers, mentally retarted babies who can't speak yet, blacks whites, you name it. sexual abuse does not happen according to mentality, race, religion and so on.

A person no matter how smart can daydream and that is what dissociation is - daydreaming yourself mentally out of a situation where you cannot physically escape from.

Not everyone who is abused becomes DID but everyone no matter who and how smart they are can become DID.

As for what to do now if you don't believe you are DID thats ok. so right now what you need to do is learn ways that will calm you when you are having a problem when your brain is thinking fast and repeating.. try doing something that you like to do, maybe sleep with a light on so your imagination doesn't work overtime in the dark at night, take a bath, write, draw, listen to music...

hang in there.