Wearemadeoflove, thanks for posting that; it's quite interesting, and possibly helpful for me. Unfortunately, those are things I've more or less actively done for my whole life with little remedy. I've had a bad night tonight, and telling myself it's just OCD, yadda yadda hasn't really helped a great deal.. since I still had the moment and stuff.

What if it's not a senseless false message? What if it's all true? How can I know the difference? These things are what trip me up. :\