Definitely doesn't help to have a third party in the mix, I know. Completely my fault.

I recognize that I can't compare the newness feelings vs. the married feelings...Apples and oranges.

I try to quantify how I feel about my wife though, and I start thinking well, she's just a really good friend.

I think about it even more, and I realize, okay, she's actually NOT a good friend. Critical, stubborn, and pulls me into being a person I don't want to be. She's not particularly interested in me, or me her.

She's a wonderful mother though, but that's not enough.

Truthfully, I would bet money that she feels roughly how I do, but she's not the type that would leave. She'd just do what she's doing until I leave.

Forgetting the "other woman" is the right thing to do, and she and I are perfectly fine with that.

I just dread six months of working on a relationship that was not the right thing in the first place.

Someone asked if she works on what the therapist says, and yes, she does. But it's like busting through the homework to get back to cruise mode (her words).

I don't know, i'm not sure what advice I expected. It's all good, just a tough position that i've put myself in.

Just feels like there's no right thing, only wrong.

I think i'm more messed up than I realized!