I know this plays in to exactly what I discovered, but I still miss her. Its hard to break free from thinking about her and not me. It really is like a drug, I suppose. I actually sent her a article about narcissistic/ codependent relationships that absolutely spelled out our relationship to a "T". I didnt expect a response which I ddint get, and blocked her email and phone number for good, but still in my mind I hope she hears what the article says and gets help (which I think is a 5% chance), but still hope she does. The toughest thing is know all of her great qualities are what I want in a life partner, and we connect there. But we connected because of our disorders as well. The more I read I hear that narcissitics dont change usually until something really bad happens to them scares me and my heart breaks for that, because at some level I do care greatly for her.