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Clinte89, I understand completely. After much time and work, I rarely feel that way anymore though. Once you have a calmer life, it can become addicting too. Still occasionally, there will be a trigger and I will be drawn to the the excitement; in fact it will be irresistible to me. In the end, after these incidents, I sincerely miss my calm and I especially like myself so much better at the end of the day. Does the old awesome translate when you are thinking clearly? It does not for me. Don't forget the bad times and the regrets.
Still, I did miss it a lot if I am honest, but I have had so many cool new experiences that I would never have had if I was stuck in my old patterns. It is really no contest. Maybe w/time, it will be less of a draw for you, as it is for me now. -GC
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By Grace Claire - because Grace and Claire were both taken
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