Girl,
Thank you so much for your reply.
Firstly, before I say anything else, I'd like to say that I wish I had the skills and experience to know what to say to make your life different with a click of my fingers, I really, really do. I know you're seeing a T and don't really like them, but try to trust in them.

I don't believe that girl in the photo is dead. I never will. I (and other on these boards) will keep fighting for her re-emergence for as long as it takes.

I know it doesn't feel this way, but from what I've read about your story, you have absolutely nothing to hate yourself about. I know others are trying to make you feel as though you were at fault for the events of your life, but you weren't. If you have made mistakes, then you can apologise for them and move on. Everyone makes mistakes. As far as I can tell, the mistakes have never been yours though. There is no justification for what happened to you and you should never, ever hate yourself for it.

As I don't know you very well, can I ask you a couple of questions?

1. Can you give me one positive thing about yourself? Look back at what you've done in your life and find something where you can say "I was proud of myself for doing that".

2. What do you want to do in the future? I remember a thread in which you said you were getting good grades at one point. If you can't see yourself in the future at the moment, then tell me what that little girl in the photo wanted to do.