I don't want to sound too self-centered here but all my life I've spent my birthday(valentines day) all by myself -not even with friends-and each time it's more and more painful..on top of that knowing that nobody's ever hugged me or kissed me or said that they love me. And also i'm really sensitive and childlike in terms of emotional development.

Last valentines day i went outside of my dorm to buy some groceries only to see couples everywhere holding hands and some would hurl insults at me for kicks,... its just too painful.

i dont know what i should do this coming valentines day(staying home)...how should i prepare emotionally?