hi eonblue, you dont sound self centred at all. i can only imagine how painful it was for you to have to see couples hugging while you didnt have anyone to hug you. i would check what events are taking place on the 14th that arent aimed at couples. if you are in college you could see what clubs and societies are offering that day..another idea would be to do something with some friends and family if the live close by. i know it doesnt sound like a perfect bday but i would keep my mind open and just join an activity/event. hugs