For as long as i can remember i have had head issues...lol but bad background doesnt a person make, so i've strived to be normal and live a normal life, hold a job down etc, but its becoming increasingly hard, and i find myself in a fragile emotional state.

I have to fix things when they are wrong, and when I say wrong I mean in my own definition of wrong, logical... not always so much lol. Mainly a problem at work, if somthing is not done how it is supposed to be i fight to contain an unrealistic rage over it, this varies from coloured flags being put in a wrong slot to missing info, its hard to explain more without giving details of my job, but i need to cheek and then correct things, if the flags are wrong (it will not cause any problems at work by being in wrong slot btw) i have to switch it to correct it. and the more of these things i come accross the more enraged i get, and some days i cant keep it inside, it pops out with anything from a snarky comment to a full blown rant. I need to have control of everything, and my office manager who has known me a very long time, she thinks its ocd related and i should see my doctor. Now I have clinincal depression and as a result had cbt for over a year a few years ago, but we never touched on my control issues etc.
Also, a side note, if i have a song in my head i have to sing it through correctly in my head, if i make a mistake i have to start again, once i do it right i need to do it a few more times to oh i dunno... seal the correctness i guess, before i can forget the song. I have read a little about intermitant explosive disorder and wondered about that also. Whatever is wrong with me i need to fix it or i will lose everything...