1) Hi Stormymermaid, I'm sorry you are in the same boat as me. Unfortunately, I don't have much hope for myself. Life is like a tease. One day I see a rock in the distance and I think, there might be something for me behind the rock. Then, I finally get to reach it and look behind the rock and find nothing. I hope you have better luck than me Stormy.

2) Hi Helplesshopeless, I'm so sorry you feel the way I do as that is a bad place to be. Sometimes it helps me to post here on PC when I have no one else to talk to. You have really nailed the feeling with "pointless self-perpetuating circle" excellent description. My sentiments exactly. I also feel that I'm still here, not so much that I'm a coward, but because life is so very short. I know nature will take care of my ending soon enough.

3) If anyone is out there that has found their significant other/soul-mate, hold on tight. You are fortunate indeed.