I've often struggled with my identity ... I've often felt like a chameleon, becoming who I'm around instead of having a healthy sense of self ... I guess that came about while trying to survive the violent home I grew up in ... Trying to be who or what I was supposed to be in order to make bad things not happen - as if I had any control over that ... Or to simply try to be whatever it was they needed me to be so I could somehow make myself fit in and belong ... At least now I'm aware of it and work on simply being me ... Extra frustrating when I find myself slipping back into old patterns and habits again though.