first of all you are not a drain or burden on anyone. you are struggling now but it will get better. maybe if you try talking about some of the things you are dealing with with someone will help to get you to get help. remember that it's okay and normal to not be able to deal with everything on your own. needing help and asking for it is the first step to getting better.

is it all possible for you to get into therapy or even find someone in your life who you trust and who can support you in these tough times? For me having someone i knew i could talk to and i trusted really helped to deal with and work through my issues.

You WILL get through this and i know that you are an amazing person who deserves to be helped and is not a burden to anyone... especially to those who know and love you.

i hope this helps,..... Sam