I used Ativan for about 2 years some years back and I think it greatly helped me to calm down and to get some sleep with my over active mind as I slept.
IMO - I think some of the past problems you had was probably due more to your EMOTIONAL UPSET and with everything coming out all at once than it was with the medicine Ativan, but then that my opinion and not exactly fact.
LoVe,
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