I'm a 35 yo female and have always had issues with my sexuality.
I present as lesbian because for me this is easiest although most of my previous sexual experiences have been negative.
I have now been enlightened to an alternative of asexuality and its like a weight has been lifted! Although this is still pretty unheard of!
It's really difficult trying to separate depression from my sexuality because I was raised in a strict household where anything other than heterosexuality was dirty and wrong....

I don't know what I'm actually asking or stating here? Does anyone have any words of wisdom, thoughts or experiences of this or how to deal with this in an already cluttered and damaged mind?

I'm new here and don't even know if this is the place to ask - Nowt like just jumping on in!!