Constantly battling my self-induced judgment

Emotional isolation

Bouncing from wishing I was who I once was to fearing that I'll always be depressed in the future and never being content with now

Regret for all the years laid to waste by depression

Anger at why I am this way and that no matter what I do, it doesn't seem to change things

Loneliness, Isolation, Not understood

Driven away friends and family

My 7 year old nephew doesn't understand why I don't have much expression in my face and don't laugh very often--this is the hardest