Hey,
I know I'm new to the site and this is my first post, so you probably wont respond. But I'm in need of some serious advice. I've had anxiety my entire life and I've been depressed for most of my life as well (story of everyone's life on here, I know). Im 18 years old. My mom tricked me into making an appointment with a therapist, when it was suppose to be with an actual doctor. I know I have BPD. I know. And if you have it, when you read the symptoms and the symptoms described you exactly, you know what I mean by I know I have it. I have every single symptom, the disorder basically describes me, but as you may know it is not that easy to explain to a doctor. Especially a regular check up doctor or a therapist. I've been on and off about mentioning it. I don't even know what sort of doctor I need to see or what to do and I'm in serious need of guidance. I scare myself, I get so angry at myself and I do impulsive things (one of the many symptoms I have) and I can't explain to my family what is going on because they don't even know I'm depressed, let alone doing impulsive and harmful things. I keep telling my mom the importance of her making me an appointment so I can talk to someone, but without being able to tell her what is really going on, she doesn't understand. I apologize for ranting, I just need to know, if I got\ out on a limb and make my own appointment, what kind of doctor I need to see to even get a proper test or diagnosis or whatever? And if there is any advice that could make it easier for me to bring up to a doctor, it would be much appreciated. Thank you.