That must have been on your other thread, I didn't say that to you. I'm sure you didn't come here just to give up. I can't help because I don't know where you are, but the hospital would be able to tell you what the resources are there or at least tell you who to contact. I'm just going to hope you're hanging in there. We're people struggling in life too. We really wish you well even if sometimes we aren't good at expressing it.