yes i feel that way often too. i dont have any friends either, and when i talk to people they look at me weird and back off, like they get away from me. i cry a lot too, sometimes i wake up crying... and its like i cry for no reason, a teacher called on me to talk to me privately and i hadnt done anything wrong, but just the situation, it felt like too much for me to handle and i started crying for at least 30 minutes, and i coulndt stop, or talk. i saw like it wasnt really happening, like it was all going to stop suddenly and it would be over, like i trapped myself.i used to go to therapy,once, i cried for an hour without stopping, and after the hour was up, i was sobbing all the way home. i feel really lost too.. i dont even know how to deal with my life, i feel like a stone wall around me that doesnt let me do anything right. its like im a different person in my mind but then when i talk im someone else, and i cant handle it! because its not me.. sometimes i think about ending my life because im so trapped in myself.. i just dont know what to do anymore.. i feel so much like you in so many ways!