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Originally Posted by Alishia88
Your comment about becoming someone special alarmed me.
Itīs actually a sign of PTSD wanting to be someone "special" or feeling "special", different from everyone else or like a no-one so you feel the NEED to be someone really special in this world.
Itīs mentioned in "trauma and recovery".
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I guess I got over that need a long time ago, like when I was a kid...I think its possible I had at least symptoms of PTSD before the trauma I originally attributed it to. I mean I remember kind of feeling that need but I got so used to getting picked on and not being taken seriously and constant disvalidation of my feelings(a lot of that was unintentional from family members not understanding certain issues I had.)
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It also says that when you start to recover this feeling will fade and you will feel more normal like everyone else, need for "specialness" will decrease and you will find more pleasure in "normal" activities.
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I never felt normal to begin with, especially being ostracized all the time at school I mean even if I didn't think I was odd to begin with...it still would have been pointed out by others just as much.
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You are already special as yourself. And anything you can be very special to you.
When you regain some sense of yourself you will regain a feeling of being special for yourself, not in the world and to the world, but to yourself, because youīre you.
donīt worry.
though i completely understand what you mean by not really feeling like you know who you are.
becoming someone "great" or "special" in the world will NOT give it back to you though, believe me.
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Yeah I imagine it probably wouldn't, I mean even if I was able to get to where I want in life(not even sure what that is) I'd still feel the same, nothing can really bring back all of what was there before. I mean anytime I think I am starting to figure out at least a basic idea of who I really am or whatever it seems like something happens so I have to question it all over again and end up just where I started.