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Old Feb 11, 2013, 05:07 AM
Ladyzero Ladyzero is offline
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All of the above too, for me. But take it from one who knows, staying in bed really screws up the body, physically. I spent a whole year literally in bed, getting up only for the bathroom and to quickly fix something to eat. Washing my long hair became (is) a chore, and I did that as little as possible. I lost my pride, I'd eat in bed and leave the plates in my room for days, my bed was my retreat. My birthday, Christmas day even, spent in bed. Not dressing once, showering infrequently, doing basic hygiene but nothing else. I have grown physically weak. Going downstairs made me breathless. I feel so weak, a recent walk to the Doc's with a friend's help, exhausted me. My out of shape body frightened me. Not just out of shape, but fragile, body. I walked like an old lady, and had to stop many times.
I am now on day 6 of my meds so they won't kick in for a while. However, I am forcing progress, doing gentle things indoors again, and have since managed the trip to the shop alone.
I cannot stress enough how inactivity corrodes the body. Yesterday, I managed to hoover just 4 rooms, it nearly killed me physically. I had to sit down in between, rest, and carry on. It was scary.
Taking baby steps every day, is all I can do. I need to build up my strength both mentally and physically.
Another result of inactivity is my weight gain. I am naturally a petite uk size 8. The jeans I put on were size 10 and tight. They used to fall of me.
I'm trying not to think too far ahead. Tomorrow, endless lonliness, the next day, and the next, next week etc. No job, no money, it's all too overwhelming. Today's project is I am having my hair done, thankfully at home. A much needed colour and cut. My hair is now down my back !
I've even started to put make up on again. Showering most days feels good again.
It's going to be a long long haul, to become the woman I was.
The physical change in me, my weakness, and weight gain will all take time to correct and change.
Taking baby steps is all we can do. Don't stay in bed, don't leave getting help, take it from me. I hit rock bottom. I don't ever want to go there again.

Last edited by Ladyzero; Feb 11, 2013 at 05:12 AM. Reason: Typo
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