that's the problem! I am the same way, I don't understand how it is I am feeling and the feelings can be debilitating. I post and post and try to understand but the knowledge of it always evades me.

ugh. I hear ya man. a lot of us do.

I write and write about it and it does offer some understanding but the most significant thing that has come from my writing about it is not understanding of what was going on, but the knowledge in the responses of those that reached out to me. I might never know what it is I feel, but I will know how to better cope with it! We may never know....

but type away! it's all you can do.

I have had more breakdowns on here trying to understand than I ever thought was possible. but like I said, it's the views and opinions of those that reached out to me that has made all of the difference. But you will never get those views and opinions if you never reach out! so type away and let people in. it's really the only way to learn!