I've learned to do happy dance, when triggered from PAST TRAUMA. I try to keep myself clean and happy I try to be friendly to people and be honest, even when angry. People need to know why i am triggered, and that i am trying to be nice, but i get afraid and panic, and can become odd. over time, people understand that it is me, not them, that causes me to become odd. now, people LIKE me, and I do not need to pretend to be any other than I am. I am grateful to my higher power and to devoted nurses and doctors and to american taxpayers and concerned citizens everywhere. Yay life! Yay God! brook.