Someone I cared about very much in high school is dead. She died four years ago, but I never knew. I haven't seen or spoken to her in 17 years... but I just got a wild urge to start looking up people I used to know on the Internet and found her obituary. I guess it's stupid to be this broken about about someone who hasn't been in my life for such a long time. I don't understand why she died and I'm still alive. She was such a better person than me. I just can't stop looking at her picture in the obituary and crying.