Is there somewhere you can go and stand in the wind even if you can't sleep outside?

Knowing you have a friend who cares enough to take your meds to protect you is a good thing. A very good thing. That's one positive thing you can focus on.

And, sometimes we all fall into the holes. It's okay. You are strong and you can climb back out again. You've had a rough year with your health and family stress at home. You're still here. Be kind to yourself.