Ya know diabetes will screw w/ you to. It sends so many levels off into so many different directions.

Have you tried a herbalist. Not for weed . But for getting your system straight by boosting certain vitamins and such. My brother in was was in such a mess after all his many medications he was loosing who he was and who he thought he was and who he became. His wife (now ex) was an *** and wouldn't help him, she liked him medicated. But thats another story, back to you my friend. I went w/ my brother in law to our local herbalist, not the GNC health store type a real herbalist. My brother in law added huge amounts of fish oil supplement, garlic, magnesium, & Vitamin B 6. They all helped until he was in an accident and found he like morphine and continued on his path to crystal meth.

I would love to have a drink every now and again. I'm not saying that this kind of self medicating is OK. It's not and it has huge risks especially w/ you being the soul provider of your little boys. What I am saying though is that you are human and it is so easy for us to want to be human and give in and do things that we know will help even if it is only temporary and not the best choice. I have not had a drink in 6 years. But I have a thing for vodka and grapefruit juice. It is sure not something you would want to consume lots of. It will give you the trots some kinda bad. But anyhow, I don't drink, If I were not married to a recovering alcoholic who was beaten badly way to often by his alcoholic father I would probably drink a little here and there. But my H wants nothing to do w/ alcohol and I am glad and will respect that. But at the occasional bridal shower if he is not there and I'm not driving and alcohol is on the menu I will have one drink.

If I ever get off of my meds, I will be going straight to the herbalist. There are also homeopathic type remedies. I have panic attacks and use something for that, I have huge down swings and use herbal tinctures for that. The Dr has said we would have to change my meds if I had to up mine again. I'm at the max dosage. I am not switching to something else. I can't handle my system being missed w/ like that. It is absolute hell.

Just be careful my friend, alcohol is nothing to play with. I'm not lecturing you and telling you, an adult what to do. I'm only saying, not around your boys if there mom got wind of you drinking then those little boys would pay for the rest of there inocent little lives then you would be very guilty indeed. You need your job to take care of your self and your boys, don't let alcohol get in the way of that. I'll be quiet now I'm not your mama or your wife and you are not a kid. You know right from wrong and how much it to much. Be wize S4, and be careful.