shrinking away is not a good thing...

I used to SI a lot..
I will tell you it has taken a great deal of self control not to do it for over 15 years.. the worse thing that happens to me now are my nightmares.. I am dead asleep and I feel like I am awake, and I see myself sitting where I always used to SI, out in the middle of the woods, where no one can find me.. and I have the one knife my brother bought me, and that is the only 0ne I ever used. The one I had last night was the worst yet.. I could actually feel it in my hands..

So yes, I can understnad others wanting to run from you. I was in highschool when I SI'd and I had no freinds at that point in my life, and I have very few 3d friends that I can say are "true" friends..

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The light is around me now
I see it so clearly now
I feel him in my heart
Lord God has set me free.
Let me rejoice in you
Let me be free
I love the lord God.
I have been Saved by your Grace and love today...04/11/04