I agree, tell your doctor & T the real reasons. OCD is treatable with the right meds, and some meds can even exacerbate it. Don't be ashamed, or frightened, they deal with this stuff so it's likely they have heard it all before and then some. If you cannot bring yourself to say anything to your T in person, give her/him a call and do it over the phone. But, find a way to break that ice...that in and of itself maybe help reduce some of this behavior, afterall, the anxiety of it all only feeds it. When it's out there to be dealt with, your fears are lessened, and your symptoms will too.

Hugs, Lisa