I am in the same place. I am ready to implode or explode in an uncontrollable rage. Even my pets aren't helping. I would never ever! hurt them but I just don't even want to be touched. My husband for the first time is listening that something is wrong and now is trying to be kind and understanding. This isn't helping, it makes me more angry. Like too little too late. I am almost moving in reverse due to shutting down. Angry keeps me from feeling the other things I have been ignoring. I have a lot of pain due to injuries and illnesses but I can actually "feel" the different kind of pain that thinking of dealing with my "baggage" creates. It terrifies me to go there and live through all of that. I am the strong one that has always handled all of the bad stuff and come out ok on the other side. Joke is on me, I berried it and now it is seeking me out and demanding to be dealt with. Then there are the external stressers that refuse to stay out of my life no matter how many times I tell them screw off. I finally made an appointment. I know this is where I need to go next but don't want to. But I need to take control and start living my life again. I am so so so tired. Anger is too much of a go to habit now.