I am not a professional though have had many episodes of Major Depression, and feel the same alot of the time. Maybe you should see about talking to a Therapist or a mental health professional. Welcome to the Forums, I know it is difficult, just hang in there and keep posting to let us know how you are doing. Hope things get better, there are alot of good caring people here who are really nice and can relate to how you are feeling. Hope things get better for you. You are a good person,

Take Care,
Kris

I wish hope for us all

If you think you have totally gave up, you haven't, because you are here!