i was always an outgoing person only became an "introvert" at age 10 when my mother told me how she never wanted me, how she should have smothered me as a baby, kill me, etc everything crashed in my world hearing that. after that, i became a mute is what i call it. i only spoke to people when spoken too.

for some reason, i have an issue with eye contact i feel you are trying to search for my soul i know that sounds weird. i took two classes in communications in college which helped and i wanted to be a member of toastmasters but that is money i dont have for it.

at 10-13 yrs old, my speech became bad. stuttering, screwing up simple words, etc u wont believe the looks i have gotten from people. they look at me as if i dont know how to speak. i was getting better with eye contact but started to stray away again.