I am in the same situation you are in. And like you, I cannot help but still care for and love her. But alas, I finally did stand up for myself, did apologize for the last argument in how I reacted, but not for what happened, which was entirely her fault. Being a narcissist, she'll probably never apologize and it's more than likely the end of the road. It's just unfortunate that I would take her back in a heart beat if she'd have me...