I was abused and raped when I was a teenager. It sort of sent me in the opposite direction. What you describe sounds like blatant sexual abuse. Repressed memories can be pretty tricky though and it is sometimes difficult to sort the truth from the imagination. It certainly sounds like something happened though.
I would strongly recommend that if you can to get a therapist that you trust to work through all of this. Your life can be better. I wish the very beat for you