Hello darkchild. It does sound from your description as if you may be suffering from depression. It may help you to learn about depression, there are a lot of resources out there, you can start with the links on the homepage of this website. Maybe it will help make your parents take it more seriously as well. There is lots of help available.

>> im having thoughts that i dont think i should have,but i have anyway,and they all seem very fun

I'm not sure what type of thoughts you are having, but just in case you are thinking of hurting yourself in any way, I want you to realize that there are other solutions, better solutions, to help you feel better. If you feel really poorly please call a hotline number, you can get a list of numbers at
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-- Dave
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