Gentle hugs to you, nervousheart.
Developing trust of strangers takes some time. It can be hard to let our guards down and share intimate thoughts & emotions with others. Imo, however, a real benefit of this website is that we all have experience with traumas. Almost all members are open-minded and very supportive of one another...sharing our experiences and techniques to help others get through things more easily and at least feel emotionally supported.
I suffer PTSD as well, I can relate to how overwhelming and disturbing the symptoms can be day & night, making life darn miserable! It is very hard.

Very gentle hugs to you. Don't forget ~ you aren't alone. For me, knowing that brings me a sense of relief. I hope that it does the same thing for you!