I am not even getting a shower this morning before going to the hospital. Eff it. I will take one when I get home, before going to group T of course.

And I'm wearing blue socks. With an outfit that has absolutely no blue in it. And I don't effin care at all.

Gotta give my mom a bath today, wash her hair in the hospital bathroom sink and put ointment on her arse cuz of a hemorrhoid issue. I think I'll put on a nurses uniform today and send them a bill for my services.

Boundaries dammit. Limit setting. AARGH!!! WHY OH WHY is it SO HARD!??!?

On the plus side, when my mom does come home - yes, it's going to be a tremendous amount of work for me - BUT I will figure out a way to incorporate ME time into it all. I will resume meeting with my comedy class, go back to doing open mic nights. I won't let the doctor release her until it is clear that she can be somewhat functional on her own and won't need 24 hour supervision and care. I HAVE to be able to have some flexibility to do SOME things for me. I will NOT sacrifice EVERYTHING.