it is good you are here!!!!!!!!!!!this is where we can speak our thoughts, good or bad and not have anybody judge you as you probably figured out already or you wouldn't have posted. i don't know much about cutting, but all i can really say is keep alive there is so much to live for and you already have done some amazing things. no one has to be Superwoman or Superman . give youself some ME time alone or friend and talk about you goals, maybe you'll have others you never even thought of. i wish i could get in your head and erase your rape for you, but i cant so remember there is still time on you side as young as you are, and they will fade? well i wish you well, and keep working at yourself, you'll come out on the right side in shining colors!!!!