There is a lot going on in my head, and in my life. I don't know what to do with the battles I'm facing. I am too damn young to be feeling this stress. My mind is racing 24678932289 miles an hour and I have all these unresolved issues that are eating at me. I feel pathetic ranting about it online and like an dumb *** for being 'on the pitty pot' and having all you guys read this. I am learning to accept myself, but being a 19 year old girl dealing with manic depression and a past of 'neglect', abuse, trauma, drug addiction, and a very disfunctional family; I am having a very hard time dealing with these emotions. It's such a ****ing cliche it makes me sick. But as I've said before, I am stuck in a rut, I feel weak, and I'm lost. Maybe I need friends, or counseling. I just don't know where to start much less how to start living a healthy, happy, fullfilled life. I am normally not like this, I'm more of the grinn and bare it type, but I am at my breaking point.