..this kinda goes back to and adds on...with the spirituality Dan..

to me?...the meds are like fitting 'off road' tyres onto the very cool racing wheels of a sportscar...

knowing full well the road is rough as hell!...if there is even a road likely most of the time there is no road on the map on the head up display it's all jungle desert moonscape.

so maybe they help? the meds...but I'm gonna drive there anyway...off the road off the planet...and I sometimes wonder the meds make me feel safer than I should be?...whatever!

...this is how I see it...

"the illness is tight ...the world is loose...reality is loose...it bends after a while

once the survival instinct has been proven reliable?...then the world becomes flexible...the symptoms navigate their own reality and to mess with this just delays the inevitable ...

cos it's no longer about living or dying...

it's about trusting we aint' faulty

...and neither is life

faulty...unless?

we both you me us and it likewise are too