It was hugely stressful and difficult. But also good and hopefully productive. I am perplexed about some things he said and need to think about it more. He uses the word trauma pretty often when discussing my childhood and has noticed that I do not use that word. So that was weird to talk about, and I reverted to the 'oh it wasn't that bad' stance. Whereupon he told me that the abuse I suffered was "if not the worst, certainly the top 3 worst" cases of abuse he had ever dealt with.

Oh, and for the first time, he commented on my dissociation in session. We discussed quite a while ago that he didn't really notice when it happened and he needed some kind of cue from me. Which I was never able to give him. So either he has gotten a lot better at reading me, or it was just much more obvious today.

Thank you so much for asking!